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Personal Questions 1. What is your real, birth name? What name do you use? My name is Nora Klare Deboeck, and unless I have introduced myself to you under a false name, I won't answer to any other. 2. Do you have a nickname? What is it, and where did you get it? My name is too short for nicknames. Owen calls me "Stantz" sometimes, which is an ugly name, but he thinks he is witty. 3. What do you look like? (Include height, weight, hair, eyes, skin, apparent age, and distinguishing features) I am 171 cm tall, and somewhere around 56 kg. My eyes and hair are both dark brown, and my hair is very short - just a little past my ears. I am half-Filipina, but nobody ever really sees it until I tell them, or after I've been in the sun for awhile and begin to look properly tan. Normally, I think I look paler than I am supposed to be, and very tired, with dark circles under my eyes. I have a tattoo on my right shoulder and another on my lower back, and a wide variety of scars. The most prominent scars I have are on each wrist; they are rather thick, and bisect my forearms from my wrist to about halfway to my elbow. 4. How do you dress most of the time? Casually. Most of my clothing was bought secondhand, or has seen years and years of wear. I wear trousers most of the time - usually jeans - for ease of movement, but I also like skirts. I like to feel pretty, but fancy dress just isn't practical most of the time. I do love shoes, though, and usually wear tall boots. 5. How do you "dress up?" It depends on where I'll be going. I have been known to dress more sedately when going to church or a funeral or some similarly serious function. Or when I'm going out for fun, I may wear stiletto heels, or more revealing clothing than I would wear from day to day. 6. How do you "dress down?" When I have nothing in particular to do, I just wear an old t-shirt, sometimes with pyjama bottoms. I like to wear Owen's white undershirts; they're very comfortable. 7. What do you wear when you go to sleep? Honestly? Usually nothing. Sometimes a large shirt and a pair of knickers, sometimes pyjamas. 8. Do you wear any jewelry? I sometimes wear earrings, but jewelry usually just gets in my way. The only article I never take off is my ring, a braided white and rose gold band. 9. In your opinion, what is your best feature? My lips. Don't laugh. 10. What's your real birth date? June 2, 1981, to the best of my knowledge. 11. Where do you live? Describe it: Is it messy, neat, avant-garde, sparse, etc.? It's quite neat, but that's no fault of my own. I live in Owen's flat; it's far too large, and too fancy, but Owen likes to buy things, and I don't really care about decorations and furniture and things like that. 12. Do you own a car? Describe it. I have never owned a car, but I drive Owen's when I must. It is a pewter Volkswagen Jetta. 13. What is your most prized mundane possession? Why do you value it so much? Um, I don't really have prized possessions. They're just things. But the object that has the most value to me is my ring, because it reminds me of Owen. 14. What one word best describes you? Lucky. Familial Questions 1. What was your family like? When I was very young, my family was small - only myself and my mother. She was twenty-three when I was born, and I was often left with a babysitter when I was small, and put into school as soon as I was old enough. My mother dated occasionally, and went through a number of boyfriends before she settled on my stepfather. She married Josef when I was ten years old, and he treated me like his own daughter until they had one of their own four years later. 2. Who was your father, and what was he like? I haven't ever met my biological father, so I couldn't tell you. My mother tells me he was probably a particular handsome and charming visiting diplomat from the Philippines, with whom she had a brief affair. Though my father is listed as "unknown" on my birth certificate, judging by my apparent ethnicity, I believe her guess is correct. If that's the case, his name was Rafael Loshang, but I don't know where he lives or what he looks like. My step-father's name is Josef von Queckelberghe, and he is an architect. He doesn't speak much, but he is a good man, who has always treated myself and my mother kindly. 3. Who was your mother, and what was she like? My mother's name is Linda von Queckelberghe, but when I was born, she was Linda Deboeck. I'm told that I am a lot like she was when she was younger. She has always encouraged me to explore and learn, but I think she worries a lot about me. 4. What was your parents' marriage like? Were they married? Did they remain married? My mother never married my father. I doubt he even knows I exist; I believe they lost touch when he went home to the Philippines. He could have a family of his own by now, for all I know. My mother's marriage to Josef has been a happy one, as far as I'm aware - they seem to me to be very much in love. I'm sad to say that if there has been a major point of stress in their relationship, it has been me, for I was not an easy child to raise, especially in my teens. When I see them nowadays, though, they seem quite happy. 5. What were your siblings names? What were they like? I have one half-sister named Lise. She is considerably younger than I am, born when I was already a teenager. I'll admit I'm not very familiar with the person she is becoming, but she has always been a bright child, though a bit lazy when it comes to her studies. 6. What's the worst thing one of your siblings ever did to you? What's the worst thing you've done to one of your siblings? My sister and I only lived under the same roof for about four years, until I graduated from secondary school and moved out to go to university. Our relationship isn't much like the normal kind that siblings have with each other. We never competed for toys, but we did compete for attention - especially our mother's. I think that the worst things we ever did to each other have to do with that. Lise stole Mum and Josef's attention away from me when she was born, just as I and my problems have stolen it away from her several times over the years. 7. When's the last time you saw any member of your family? Where are they now? I visited my family at the beginning of last month. I would expect they are at their home in Brussels. 8. Did you ever meet any other family members? Who were they? What did you think of them? My mother was an only child, and her father died when she was fourteen. Her mother died when I was four or five, and I remember her babysitting me now and then, but not much specific. Josef's father is living, and he has two sisters who both have husbands and children, but his family has never taken much interest in me, nor I in them. Childhood Questions 1. What is your first memory? Probably going to the park with my grandmother when she babysat me. I think I must've been about three or four. I went down the slide too fast and hurt myself, and her little dog licked my tears away when I cried. 2. What was your favorite toy? I favoured a stuffed bear with large ears for a good part of my childhood. We called him my "nounours", the French for teddy bear, and it was the only French I managed to retain until I entered school. He was lost somewhere when I was around seven or eight years old, and I think I must have cried for a week. 3. What was your favorite game? I don't recall any games that I liked to play, but I do remember having swinging contests with the other children at the playground, to see who could swing the highest. And then we would launch ourselves off into the air and land in the sand. 4. Any non-family member adults stick out in your mind? Who were they, and how did you know them? Why do they stick out? A few of my mum's boyfriends, I suppose. Some of them were not very nice at all; I think I inherited my luck with men from her. 5. Who was your best friend when you were growing up? I was the sort of child who had a new best friend every month. My interests changed quickly, and my attention wandered... I do remember most of them were boys, though. I've never gotten on very well with girls. 6. What is your fondest, childhood memory? 7. What is your worst childhood memory? Adolescent Questions 1. How old were you when you went on your first date? I think I was around thirteen, maybe? I believe we went to the cinema; it was very innocent. 2. It is common for one's view of authority to develop in their adolescent years. What is your view of authority, and what event most affected it? I never had a very high opinion of authority. My mother encouraged this - she liked for me to question things and learn for myself, rather than follow what others told me. I'm sure she began to regret this as I entered my teens and fell in with the crowd that I did, and began to flout her authority. 3. What were you like in high school? What "clique" did you best fit in with? I was quite wild as a teenager. My friends and I were the ones who skived off classes to smoke and have adventures. We were very much the rebellious type, and I think we fancied ourselves sort of misunderstood artists, even though only a few of us had any talent with music or painting or anything like that. I don't think that adults knew what to do with me, really. I just went where my whims took me, which was pretty often towards trouble. 4. What were your high school goals? I was never very goal-oriented. I enjoyed art and music, but didn't have the talent, and I loved history and philosophy, but couldn't figure out any actual occupation to do with that. Really, I just wanted to travel. I wanted to see everything. 5. Who was your idol when you were growing up? Who did you first fantasize about in your life? Jim Morrison. I was so in love with him. I was also very fond of Bob Dylan, and my favourite Beatle was John Lennon. My mother liked all that sort of music, and it's what I grew to love as well. 6. What is your favorite memory from adolescence? I look back fondly on most of my adolescence, though most of it is a long blur of inebriation. It was sort of my last taste of innocence, and it was mostly spent in pursuit of good times, of which I had many. I was a generally happy teenager, and popular among my friends, and I had a lot of fun. 7. What is your worst memory from adolescence? My imbuing. I think it sort of ended my adolescence. Occupational Questions 1. Do you have a job? What is it? Do you like it? If no job, where does your money come from? I work at a little occult shop in Covent Garden called Inner Sanctum. It's a funny place to work, because it's all that stuff they call "new-age", with incense and candles and little pewter pentagrams on chains. It has very little to do with anything truly supernatural, but it's a very laid-back place to work, and my schedule is flexible, both of which are necessary. 2. What is your boss or employer like? (Or publisher, or agent, or whatever.) My boss's name is Julie, and she is...probably in her mid- or late-forties, with frizzy reddish hair. She's a Wiccan, and always wears very flowy clothes. She's very cheerful and kind and understanding, and I like her a lot, even though her shop is filled with rubbish that doesn't do what she thinks it's supposed to do. But none of it harms anyone, so I don't think it's bad. Julie certainly isn't the first to get it wrong. 3. What are your co-workers like? Do you get along with them? Any in particular? Which ones don't you get along with? There is one other employee besides me, and his name is Rhys. I think he's around eighteen or nineteen because he doesn't go to school, and he fancies himself a vampire and a ladies' man, except he tries a bit too hard, and he wouldn't want to find out that vampires aren't at all like he pretends, wearing all black and makeup. He's also harmless, but he's endlessly annoying Owen, whenever he comes to see me there. 4. What is something you had to learn that you hated? When I used to work at boutiques, they used to teach us these sort of sales pitches. I don't know, I always thought they sounded very contrived, like an advertisement. I'm not very good at persuading people to buy things, I don't think. Except maybe alcohol. 5. Do you tend to save or spend your money? Why? I don't make a lot of surplus, so it tends to get spent pretty quickly on things I need, like food. Since I moved in with Owen, I have a little more to spare, so I have a bit saved up. I don't like spending lots of money on things that I don't really need. Likes & Dislikes Questions 1. What hobbies do you have? I don't really have time for a lot of hobbies. I read a lot, and I used to dance and play the piano. 2. Who is your closest mundane friend? Describe them and how you relate to them. I don't have mundane friends anymore. 3. Who is your worst mundane enemy? Describe them and why you don't get along. 4. What bands do you like? Do you even pay attention? I don't pay attention to more current music, really. I like older music, like Bob Dylan and the Beatles and the Doors. I also like classical music, and jazz. 5. What tape or CD hasn't left your player since your purchased it? Why? 6. What song is "your song?" Why? 7. What's been your favorite movie of all time? 8. Read any good books? What were they? I have read many, many good books. They are far too many to list, but I always enjoy the Russian classics. 9. What do you watch on the television? Soap operas, game shows, science programmes and things like that. Things that teach you something. But I don't watch television very often. 10. When it comes to mundane politics, do you care? If so, which way do you tend to vote? If not, why don't you care? I absolutely do not care about British politics, because I know very little about them. At home, I did vote in the elections because voting in Belgium is compulsory, although I cared very little about the turnout. I didn't have a preferred party, exactly, but I did vote for Flemish party candidates because I am Flemish and that's the way things are done there. 11. What type of places do you hang out in with your mundane friends? I don't have any of those anymore. I used to have coworkers that I would drink with and things like that, but they're all in Brussels. 12. What type of places do you hang out in with your normal friends? Honestly, I don't do a lot of hanging out in general. Sometimes I'll meet up with another Hunter for a drink. Mostly it's just me and Owen, though, and I'm perfectly fine staying home then. 13. What annoys you more than anything else? 14. What would be the perfect gift for you? I don't need anything fancy. Just a bouquet of sunflowers would be lovely. 15. What's the most beautiful thing you've ever seen? 16. What time of day is your favorite? I am very much a night person, but I think my favourite time of day is sunrise. It's nice and quiet and peaceful. That's usually around my bedtime, but I like to stay and watch the sun chase the shadows away. 17. What kind of weather is your favorite? I like it when it's sunny, but I like it even more when the weather suits my mood. 18. What is your favorite food? What is your least favorite food? I love Asian food - Vietnamese, Thai, Indian, Chinese, Japanese. Anything with curry in it, or rich spices. I'm not such a fan of things like salads, or things that you can't really taste. 19. What is your favorite drink? (Coffee, Coke, Juice, Beer, Wine, etc.) I like coffee, and my favourite alcoholic drink is vodka, particularly blackcurrant vodka. 20. What's your favorite animal? Why? I enjoy platypus because...well, I've never actually seen one in person, but I think they're funny. 21. Do you have any pets? Do you want any pets? What kind? No, I've never particularly cared for animals. Though I might have enjoyed the company when I lived alone, I travelled too much to keep one; it would've been too much trouble to find someone to care for it when I was out of town. Here, I doubt Owen would stand for one mucking up the flat. 22. What do you find most relaxing? (Not as in stress relief, but as something that actually calms you down.) Candlelight. It always puts me at ease. 23. What habit that others have annoys you most? Lying. Always lying. 24. What kind of things embarrass you? Why? I don't get embarrassed very easily. Not easily at all, actually. 25. What don't you like about yourself? 26. How would you like to look? Perhaps not so skinny? Without so many scars? I don't know, it's not something I typically worry over. Sex & Intimacy Questions 1. Would you consider yourself straight, gay, bi, or something else? Why? Well, that's a difficult question. I suppose I'm a bit bisexual, because I've been attracted to women before? But I'm primarily interested in men, and I've never actually dated a woman, so I think I'm more straight than anything. 2. Who was the first person you had sex with? When did it happen? What was it like? How well did it go? His name was Jacob and I was almost seventeen. He was older than I was - perhaps nineteen or twenty, and far more experienced. I felt very inadequate; I didn't feel very attractive when I was a teenager. It was a bit awkward and wasn't very good for me, but he seemed to enjoy himself just fine, and we did it a few more times before we both moved on to other people. 3. Have you ever had a same-sex experience? Who with, what was it like, and how did it go? I've slept with a couple of women. It's nice, though some are better than others, of course. But I do prefer men. 4. What is your deepest, most well-hidden sexual fantasy? Would you ever try it? I think I've tried out all of my fantasies. I don't think one should repress things like that. 5. What was the wildest thing you've ever done, sexually? Who was it with and when did it happen? Er...think of the wildest thing you can think of. It was probably that. 6. Is there any sexual activity that you enjoy and/or practice regularly that can be considered non-standard? (Bondage, Fantasy Play, etc.) Why do you like it? Owen and I practice erotic asphyxiation - or, I let him restrict my breathing. It's something I've always enjoyed due to the physical feeling, but with Owen it's especially nice because I enjoy seeing him be dominant. 7. Is there any sexual activity that you will not, under any circumstances, do? I think I'm pretty adventurous, but I don't enjoy anything that has to do with blood. Or might leave a mark. I see enough blood and don't find it erotic, and I think I've got enough scars to be getting on with. Also, I don't really like...excretions. Piss, and that sort of thing. Things that aren't sanitary. 8. Do you currently have a lover? What is their name, and what is your relationship like? What are they like? Why are you attracted to them? His name is Owen George Ivers, and he is...well, our relationship is serious now. We live together, and I suppose you could consider us married. And most importantly, I love him more than anything. He's a Hunter, like me, and that means we don't have to hide anything from each other, but it also means we worry over each other constantly. He comes off as sort of surly, I guess. Or rude, when you first meet him. But underneath, he's very kind and generous; I think all that is some kind of defence mechanism. I'm attracted to him because...well, he's handsome. And I think at first he was kind of a nut to crack, or a mystery to solve, but it's become so much more since then. I don't really know why I'm so attracted to him. Maybe it's like that saying - opposites attract. But I don't think it really matters why. 9. What is the perfect romantic date? A night in with candles and wine is about as conventionally romantic as I need. 10. Describe the perfect romantic partner for you. Owen. I don't want anything else. 11. Do you ever want to get married and have children? When do you see this happening? For all intents and purposes, Owen and I are already married - at least in the way that matters to us. I am committed to him and never plan on leaving him, and he has promised me the same. I don't foresee us ever having a ceremony and everything; it would be unnecessary, unless for some reason legal complications arose. I physically cannot have children of my own, and I would not want to. It wouldn't be fair to the child, with Owen and I both being Hunters. I'll admit I like the idea of...I don't know, having something that is made of both of us, but...I don't think I'd make a very good mother. Maybe if things were different, I'd feel otherwise, but I still think it's for the best that it won't ever happen. 12. What is more important - sex or intimacy? Why? I think that both are very important, but I've lately discovered that sometimes intimacy is even better than sex. 13. What was your most recent relationship like? Who was it with? (Does not need to be sexual, merely romantic.) I think Owen is the only person with whom I've had a real romantic relationship. Everything else was mostly just about sex, even when we were supposedly dating. 14. What's the worst thing you've done to someone you loved? I think that was trying to kill myself. It hurt my mother very badly. Drug & Alcohol Questions 1. How old were you when you first got drunk? What was the experience like? Did anything good come out of it? Did anything bad come out of it? I was probably around fourteen or fifteen, and I believe all that happened was that I got extremely sick. That was the first time I drank to excess. Nothing else really happened, though. I suppose it might have won me a bit of admiration for trying it out. 2. Do you drink on any kind of regular basis? Yes, but not as frequently as I used to. We usually keep some vodka in the flat, though, and I sometimes have a drink when I get home from work or hunting. 3. What kind of alcohol do you prefer? Vodka, and Belgian beer. Rum is also quite good. 4. Have you ever tried any other kind of "mood altering" substance? Which one(s)? What did you think of each? I've tried...pretty much everything at least once. I smoked a lot of marijuana before I moved on to harder drugs. I tried cocaine and speed and ecstasy and...oh, pretty much everything you can think of. My favourite eventually became heroin. It was very sad, how much I was in love with it. It was my only love at the time, really. I loved it so much, I didn't have room for anything else, and I probably would've thrown my life away on it, had I not been imbued. 5. What do you think of drugs and alcohol? Are there any people should not do? Why or why not? I think that they result in a lot of wasted potential. The highly addictive ones, I believe people should stay away from altogether. They're the kind that ruin lives, and I know - I feel like I lost a lot of time. Looking back, I think I'm very lucky I didn't catch a disease or overdose, but even though I knew about the risks, I didn't care back then, and I think that says something in itself. Morality Questions 1. What one act in your past are you most ashamed of? What one act in your past are you most proud of? I don't think I can hold one specific act up above any other, in either case. I'm proud of having saved many lives, over the course of my career as a Hunter. I suppose I'm most ashamed of my rather spectacular moments of weakness that hurt my family. 2. Have you ever been in an argument before? Over what, with who, and who won? Of course. Owen and I fight all the time. I've fought with my mother, teachers, employers... Over all kinds of things, serious and stupid, and I've won some and I've lost some. 3. Have you ever been in a physical fight before? Over what, with who, and who won? Frequently. I mostly fight the supernatural, and though there have been some that got away, I haven't lost one of those fights yet. I've gotten into a few fights with others before, usually when drugs or alcohol were involved - both when I used them, and when I worked at places where people used them. I've broken up a few bar fights. And when Owen and I are particularly angry, we've been known to get physically violent, but Owen usually wins those when he fights back, because he is larger and stronger than I am. 4. What do you feel most strongly about? I feel strongly about quite a lot of things. 5. What do you pretend to feel strongly about, just to impress people? I don't really care that much about impressing people. There aren't a lot of people I feel inclined to impress. 6. What trait do you find most admirable, and how often do you find it? One of the most admirable traits, I think, is the ability to truly forgive. I really don't find it often. 7. Is there anything you think should not be incorporated into the media or art (sex, violence, greed, etc.,)? If so, what and why, and if not, why not? I think there should be a limit, but to some degree, I believe that everything is fair game, if portrayed properly. It's all part of life. 8. Do you have any feelings in general that you are disturbed by? What are they? Why do they disturb you? Regret is very disturbing. The wondering "what if"...it can drive you mad, I know. It could drive me mad, if I really devoted a lot of thought to it. It's dangerous. 9. What is your religious view of things? What religion, if any, do you call your own? I believe in God, and that there is an afterlife. How could I not, at this point? There are so many fantastic things out there, and I've seen proof of magic. Why shouldn't there be a God? My family is Catholic, but I don't agree with the church's doctrines, nor organised religion at all. If I had to label myself, I would call myself a deist. 10. Do you think the future is hopeful? Why? Yes. Because it has to be better than this. 11. Is an ounce of prevention really worth a pound of cure? Which is more valuable? Why do you feel this way? I think both are about equal, really. If prevention fails, I believe a cure can work just as well in some cases. Prevention would be preferable, of course, but I don't believe you should give up on trying to fix something just because you couldn't stop it from happening. Bad things happen, but you still try to fix them, or turn them into good things if you can. That'slife. 12. What's the worst thing that can be done to another person? I can't imagine anything worse than taking away someone's right to choose their own path. 13. What's the worst thing you could actually do to someone you hated? I don't hate many people, but I suppose I could shoot them if they made me angry enough. 14. Are you a better leader or follower? Why do you think that? If you think the whole leader-follower archetype is a crock of shit, say so, and explain why? Oh...I don't like to lead so much. I've never been very good at that sort of thing. I also don't work in groups so well anymore. 15. What is your responsibility to the world, if any? Why do you think that? My responsibility to the world is to rid it of the supernatural. At the risk of sounding crazy, I know that because the voices told me so. 16. Do you think redemption is possible? If so, can anyone be redeemed, or are there only certain circumstances that can be? If not, why do you think nothing can redeem itself? Of course everyone can be redeemed, if they truly want it. No one is truly evil; I think those that choose their evil ways can be brought back toward their good side, and that good side can grow with the proper cultivation. 17. Is it okay for you to cry? When was the last time you cried? I don't like to cry, especially in front of others. But I do it now and then, usually when I'm by myself. I get very lonely and depressed, even sometimes just when Owen's at work. I feel like everything is hopeless sometimes. I suppose the last time I cried was last week at some point. 18. What do you think is wrong with MOST people, overall? I think that most people are very selective about what they see. They only see the bad and fail to appreciate the good, or they choose to ignore the bad and fall victim to it without warning or preparation. I think you need at least a bit of balance to really live right. Post-Supernatural Awareness Questions 1. When did you go through whatever made you supernatural? What was it like (in your opinion)? I was nineteen years old when I was imbued, and it was...horrible. I'm not sure if it would've been quite as bad if I hadn't been hooked on heroin at the time, but I think it might have been. I thought I was going mad. I was paranoid, hearing voices and seeing things, and the drugs only drove me even further toward insanity. I tried to take my own life, just to make it go away. It was the most harrowing experience of my life; I can't even think of anything that compares to being imbued. 2. What do you think now of being supernatural? Is it cool, or have you been screwed? It has its high and low points, like anything else does. Hunting is what I'm best at, and it's nice to feel like I'm good at something, but it's closed off so many options to me that I can't help but resent it quite a lot. It's a very lonely life, being a Hunter, and I've frequently become depressed, over the years. 3. Do you have a mentor? Who are they? How did you become their student? I had nobody to guide me through what was happening to me. It wasn't until I found the Hunters' online community that I knew I wasn't alone, and it was a while before I met another of my kind in person. 4. Do you have any magical items? Where did you get them? I think my Glock is pretty magical. I work my brand of magic with guns, knives, stakes, and a crossbow. 5. What do you think of the other denizens of the World of Darkness? Why for each? (If you haven't met something, do you think it exists, and if it does, is that bad or good?) Oh, well...there are vampires and werewolves, which I kill. I think they're rather unfortunate, quite honestly. They didn't have a choice, most of them, and now they have to live like that...some are worse than others, of course, but they do need to be taken care of. Then there are wraiths, which are just unpleasant, and I prefer not to fight demons unless it's really, really necessary. I have never met a changeling, but I'm told they are good, and I have likewise never met a fairy, but I have no reason to believe they don't exist on some separate plane. 6. Think of a major event that happened during your training/initiation. What was it? During the imbuing? Well, the major event, of course, was slashing my wrists. I was out of my mind, but somehow I can still remember doing it. I remember being horrified at myself, even as I smashed the bathroom mirror and used a shard to slice a shaky line down one arm and then the other, but I also remember the desperate feeling of wanting the voices to stop. A friend found me and called emergency, and then I remember waking up in a very white room. I thought I was dead, but the voices were still there. The rest of my so-called initiation was made ten times worse by the fact that I was also withdrawing from drug addiction. I couldn't really tell you a lot about the details. But I also remember the day after I was finally clean that I decided to just accept it, and lie my way out so I could get on with my life. Such as it was. 7. What is something you had to learn during your training that you hated? Why did you hate it? I hated killing things, at first. I was a bit squeamish when it came to blood and gore, and I had always considered myself a pacifist. I initially tried to find other ways to help them...but hurting others is in their nature, and I quickly learned that the kindest thing to do was to rid them of their curse once and for all. Miscellaneous Questions 1. What is the thing that has frightened you most? Do you think there is anything out there that's scarier than that? What do you think that would be? First, it was the fear of death. I was very frightened of death, being suddenly made aware of my own mortality at an age where most young people believe they're invincible. I was of that opinion myself, until I had a few near brushes with death. But I think that even worse than dying would be to have someone I love die. I think that possibility is the most frightening of all. 2. Has anyone or anything you've ever cared about died? How did you feel about it? What happened? I've known a few good Hunters who have died in the line of duty. Mostly it just makes me feel scared, knowing that one day I will meet the same fate. 3. What was the worst injury you've ever received? How did it happen? About two years ago, a vampire in animal form took a bite out of my right thigh, after a man distracted me during the hunt. Luckily, he was also a Hunter. I would've died if he hadn't taken me back to his hotel and healed me. I spent ten days in his bed recovering, and later found my way back to it. 4. How ticklish are you? Where are you ticklish? I am a little ticklish on my neck, and under my arms. 5. What is your current long term goal? To survive until tomorrow. 6. What is your current short term goal? To survive until tomorrow. I only really have one consistent goal. 7. Do you have any bad habits? If so, what are they, and do you plan to get rid of them? Er...I smoke quite a lot. But I don't plan to stop. And I'm told I have a problem when it comes to putting things where they belong, but what Owen hasn't got me to do myself by nagging me all the time, he does for me. 8. If you were a mundane person, what would you do with your life? What occupation would you want, and how would you spend all your time? I suppose I would've finished up my philosophy degree...maybe I would be a teacher, or something. Or maybe I would've died long ago of a drug overdose. I don't know. Thinking about it makes my head hurt, and I don't think I want to consider it. I would be perfectly happy with the life I currently lead, without the monsters and constant peril bits. 9. What time period do you wish you had lived in? Why? (Looking at this as an attempt to change history doesn't count.) What appeals to you about this era? I think I would have had a lot of fun in the sixties. I would have liked to go to a Doors concert when Jim Morrison was still alive. 10. How private of a person are you? Why? I am a very private person out of necessity, as I don't really want to be locked up again, when someone finds out that I hear voices and think I see monsters at every turn. 11. If you were to gain an obscenely large sum of money (via an inheritance, a lawsuit, a lottery, or anything else) what would you do with it? Er...I don't know. Maybe buy a nice house somewhere quiet, with not very many creatures around. And I would buy myself a motorbike. And probably...I don't know, give the rest to Owen to invest, because he's better with that rubbish than I am. 12. What would you wish for if you found a genie? I would wish to no longer be obliged to hunt the damned, but free to happily grow old with the man I love. 13. What do you do when you are bored? I read, or watch the television, or go exploring, or annoy Owen. 14. What is the most frightening potential handicap or disfigurement you can conceive of? What makes it so frightening? Vampirism. Because I've seen exactly what happens, and what one can become.